Lif'e's wierd dude!

For the past year I've been complaining endlessly about how I graduated at the worst possible time I could and how I don't know what I want to do with my life and I'm approaching my mid thirties. So many things have been on my mind lately. I'm flat broke, I'm actually past broke and tens of thousands of dollars in debts ($20thou to my credit cards and $30 thou to my student loans making it a whopping $50 thousand dollars I'm under). I've been in and out of my family plumbing business since the sixth grade either as an apprentice, office manager, or journeyman depending on whether I was trying to avoid the road or the office at that particular time. I have a like-hate relationship with this trade. Most of the time it's hate, but right now it's keeping me afloat. So after finishing nearly a decade long bachelor's degree I'm back in school to become a plumber (the occupation I went to college to avoid) because the job market is really rough right now. So, yeah, just my luck, I graduated clueless just when the stock market started crashing and thousands of people are laid off. Wah! I try not to look at it as the end of the world, I just feel like I'm terminally entry level. Then I get even more bummed when I read that even people with tons more experience than I have are on the unemployment line. If they're hopless, where does that leave me? I'm under paid, over-weight, in-debt, out of ideas, directionless and my fiancee is going to shoot me if I complain about one more thing.

That sounds pretty bleak, I know, but there are things that I can to help matters: I want to be a writer and I'm having a tough time getting my foot in the door. This blog is supposed to help with that, at least as an output to get my chops up. I could sell my body?..... Nah, no takers.

I could job hunt regardless just to practice and see what's out there. I get discouraged though. I feel like all the real opporunities are hidded behind a three feet thick wall of scam and advertisement. "Give us $30.00 and we'll give you a list of jobs that you're not qualified for! Such a deal!" No thanks!! i thought about PR and I applied for a couple of those jobs. I got one call back and it was from a direct marketing firm. ARG!! People out there must be really desperate to look at a place like that and go " Yeah, I'll take money from friends and family and/or make cold-calls to generate revenue for a product that doesn't exist. Sure!" How on God's green covered dirtball is this LEGAL? These ads are all over the place, on legitimate job sites. Nobody investigates this stuff?

I'd love to be a tech-writer. They make tons of money, allegedly. I wonder how to get in the door with that field? And where do I go to get the experience necessary?

Doesn't it feel like a trap?: You apply. You can't get a job without college. You go to college and it takes years. You apply. You don't have enough experience, do an internship and starve. You do an internship and drop 30 pounds. You apply and maybe you get the job, maybe not. If you do get the job, it's not forever and you may get laid off. You apply. You're over-qualified now.

BUT HEY! I'm not saying give up, no one ever made it by giving up. So many have tried... It just doesn't work.